First of all, I had a miscarriage. It was a surprise to me, as I thought we were being rather careful about bringing new little people into the world. It rendered me weak physically, and, even though I could logically dismiss it, it put me in a funk mentally and emotionally. I even exhibited similar symptoms to my postpartum depression.

After that it was downhill with my health. I was diagnosed with a thyroid problem, but then was given too much medicine, so that my heart, at resting, was 90bpm+. They adjusted medication, and also tried to give me something to lower heart rate, but that also lowered blood pressure, and since my blood pressure rests at 70/100, I didn’t feel comfortable taking it.

After all that, I now feel better. I feel like I should.

I’ve gained a new outlook on life, and I’m trying to better myself in many ways. First of all, I got glasses, which I had been in dire need of, for a long time. Depth perception was making me ill for the first few days, but now I think I’m getting the hang of it (I still can’t cook or do lots of moving with them on).

Second, I bought myself a bunch of pampering materials for the shower/bathroom. I had been using baby shampoo, since that was what we had, showering more just something to do to get clean, never really feeling pretty.

Third, I’m getting back into my exercise program. I informed people, and they’re not going to let me stop this time. Don’t let me stop, dear readers. I wish to be fit, and trim. I want my sciatica problems to go away (I really hate when my toes go numb, just because I have a big butt ;_;.)

I’m starting slow. And I started yesterday. You can catch me over at TeamBeachbody. This month is just one 10-minute trainer video a day, working up to 2 next month, and 3 to round it out. After that, I’ll move onto something new.

Yesterday was the 10-min trainer cardio, my calves burned after, but it was a glorious burn.

Today is 10-min trainer Total Body.

Onwards!

I woke up yesterday and those 90 pushups had got to me. My upper arms hurt to move to fast, my shoulders ached. I know in my heart that it’s a good thing, that I’m straining myself and building muscle, but it certainly doesn’t make for a get up and go attitude.

I made up for my slack today.

1. 10 Minute Trainer- Cardio
2. 10 Minute Trainer- Lower body (got hard at the end, I was sweating like mad and my legs did not want)
3. 10 Minute Trainer- Abs ( the ones where you have to get up on your side, either on your knee or on your foot while holding yourself up…way too hard for me. Looks like I have a goal :3)
4. Supplement- Wall sits, Pushups, Squats, Lunges, Plank Mountain Climbers, Crunches, Side Crunches (same amounts as before)

I’m sweaty but happy about it.  I can say no more slacking off, but it’s probably going to happen.

Currently- I weigh 193.5 pounds. I wear size XL and even  sometimes that doesn’t fit right, but going up another size is way too big. My pants are size 16. It’s a struggle to climb up the two sets of fourteen stairs to get to our apartment not to mention the six sets of seven to go down to the basement to do laundry.

It’s time for a change.

I’m tired of being too tired. I’m tired of being chubby.

Today, with my allergies still acting up and my head feeling about ready to burst, I decided to take a little step in the right direction. My friend Bry, made a list of exercises to do every day to supplement workout videos. I decided to start with those.

I did-

1. 3 wall sits at 30 seconds each. Though the last one stopped at 28. I find it much easier to force myself to stand there if I try to take my mind off of it. Singing a song in my head helps.
2. 90 pushups. 30 of those were from my feet, the rest were from my knees. I took frequent stops along the way. I could only make it to 20 before stopping, and even then my form was starting to compromise at about the 15 mark.
3. 100 squats with weights. I only used two 3lbers. Probably need something more substantial, but I don’t currently own it.
4. 50 lunges with weights. Once again, probably need a bit heavier of a weight.
5. 25 plank mountain climbers. I hated every second of this after the fourth. I took about two breaks.
6. 50 crunches. Whoa this made my head spin. My breathing wasn’t on par to where it should be and I was holding my breath through part of it. Stupid stuffy nose.
7. 50 side crunches. This started to hurt about halfway through. At least I know I’m working something.

More tomorrow.

I am 25 years old, married, mother of two adorable little girls who, despite my complaints, I wouldn’t trade for anything in the world.

I draw things. Usually they’re anthropomorphic in nature, but I dabble in anime flavors every so often. Expanding my art without a formal education is interesting, but I pick things up here and there.

I knit, but I never seem to get anything done. Sure I complete a project here and there, but there’s so much excitement when you start a project that most of my projects are settled into a half finished state.

I love to cook and I have a few interesting cookbooks I’d love to try out recipes in, just as soon as we can get our house in order.

My friends are much fitter then I am, but I’m looking to change that. It’s going to be a long, slow, grueling journey, but we’ve all got to start somewhere.

Now, what direction am I going to take this blog in? Probably all of the above. This is my life. I can do what I want. XD